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Thursday, April 16, 2009

The perfectionist in me.

As part of my therapy, I'm supposed to recognize my irrational reactions to things and write them down. Then I'm supposed to write down what might be a more rational reaction.

The only problem I'm having with this is that my main irrational reaction right now is stuck on repeat: Kev will never find a job. And its close friend: Kev will never find a job that can support us and I will have to work full-time for the rest of my life (cue the following- we will never have children because I refuse to incubate, birth and then hand over my children for someone else to serve as caregiver and reap the benefits that eventually follow from watching children grow up).

As a result, I feel like I'm going to fail my assignment for the week, which is to create this log of reactions.

Should worrying about failing therapy be written down as an irrational reaction?

2 comments:

  1. I hope you're not offended that I chuckled when reading this. It reminded me of the time that I went to therapy and my therapist assured me that the reason I was depressed is that I was away from home for the first time and didn't have friends. So he assigned me the ridiculous task of greeting strangers while walking to my classes on campus. (I just know that I told him I'd felt depressed since high school, and now lived with my best friends ... but I digress.)

    Any who, I of course did not start up conversations with strangers, and several weeks later, my therapist stopped returning my calls to schedule further appointments. Go figure.

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  2. It IS funny that I'm getting anxious about the methods of therapy when anxiety is one of my problems in the first place!!

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