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Saturday, July 10, 2010

Week 36

We've been blessed this week in the Pink House. Kev has accepted a full-time position working for my boss, who is quite possibly the most generous employer I've ever known.

With Kev working full-time, I will be able to cut back to part-time for the next two weeks or so until my replacement feels comfortable. It is such a relief to know that soon I won't have to squeeze myself into work attire and waddle into the office for a long, eight-hour day. I've been grateful to be healthy enough to work for this long, but I'm honestly at a breaking point. I'm so tired and uncomfortable in my skin at this point... If I had to keep working full-time the rest of this month I'd probably cry myself to sleep every night.

As it is, I had another official melt down this week due to stress. I was driving home from an incredibly busy day and I realized that I'm allowing myself to stress about work almost every waking hour when at home, I don't even have a place for my baby to sleep yet. Shouldn't I be allowing myself to worry about something important like that instead of whether or not some client feels victimized because he has chickens on his rental property and it's a violation of his contract? I found myself crying uncontrollably as I pulled into the driveway, let Maddie outside, fed her dinner and attempted to hang some curtains in the kitchen. I felt like a complete basket case but I couldn't stop the tears.



When I realized I needed to do something to calm down, I sat at the computer and started scrolling through the Yellowstone photos. It helped me control the freakout and enjoy a few minutes of reliving the trip with my family.

There are so many things in my life that are important, but I'm letting work stress me out to the max. I'm unable to enjoy the last few weeks that I have of being a little family of three. I'm forgetting to enjoy the new fans Kev installed in the PH. I'm forgetting to sit in the backyard and listen to the birds and look at the pears and apples growing on my trees.

I'm grateful Kev will be working full-time next week. I'm grateful I'll be working part-time. I'm grateful I'm still healthy. I'm grateful for the bags of hand-me-downs Seth's friend gave me for my Pilates buddy. I'm grateful that soon I'll have a baby to worry about instead of the status of an eviction or whether or not someone's lawn got mowed.

I'm also really grateful my mom will be here at the end of August. She told me to just put the baby in the cellar until she gets here and she'll take care of the disaster zone that is also known as the second bedroom.

Sounds like a plan.

6 comments:

  1. Liv, that is so fantastic!!! I'm so happy for you guys! Does this mean you won't have to go back to work after?! I do hope so! Congrats again, and I'm so glad you get to cut down. I worked until two weeks before my due date (thinking he'd come on time since i was dilating...) but the rest was SO needed! you just get so big and waddly and uncomfortable. enjoy the rest!!

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  2. Thats so great about Kevin working full time. He sounds like a great boss. And you totally deserve cutting back to part time. Hope you enjoy the last few weeks of just a family of three, before you know it she will be here :)

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  3. I am so happy for you! Kev working and you getting some well deserved time off is wonderful. Some wonderful changes are coming to you and I am happy all our prayers for you guys have been answered.

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  4. I am so glad he got a job! That has to take some stress off. Now just sit and relax and enjoy those fans. I know I have been enjoying the new ones Jeff just put in.

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  5. Hooray! I am so glad Kev got a job. What a blessing and a relief. I would be willing to lend Matt for a little while to help Kev do some manly stuff to help you get ready. Anyway, most people have their baby sleep in the pack-n-play in their room for the first month or two, so don't worry about the basement or baby's room. Plus, once the baby is here, she will sleep a lot and you will be able to get a lot done in that room. So take your mom's advice and just forget about it for a while. Just take it easy until you are ready for her to come out, then work hard on that room and you will go into labor the next day.

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  6. "She told me to just put the baby in the cellar until she gets here..."

    That made me smile, because it sounds like something MY mom would say. Except, my mom would only be half-joking.

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