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Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Mr. Sandman, bring me a dream.

This little lady and I spend a lot of time recovering. Meaning, we spend time getting over the trauma that is breastfeeding. We spend time getting over the trauma that is a sleepless night. We spend time getting over the trauma of Maddie barking and waking us up in the middle of the day.

Going into her fourth week of life, Aspen took a liking to staying awake between feedings at night. This meant I went absolutely bonkers. I would hold and soothe her and try to get the swing or bouncy chair to lull her to dreamland.

No luck.

I eventually got the point when I realized I'd be feeding her again in 45 minutes and I didn't think I could do it. So I'd wake Kev up and beg him to hold her until it was time to eat again. Then I'd fitfully sleep for 30 minutes while dreaming that the hospital was taking Aspen away from me due to my bad parenting.

It's hard to feel like I'm doing anything right when I find myself rocking back on forth on the couch praying that sleep will come for us. But this girl is gaining weight every day and filling her diapers, so I guess that's all that matters.

Who am I kidding? When Aspen decides to once again sleep at night, I'll broadcast it from the rooftop of the Pink House.

5 comments:

  1. Sounds like everything is perfectly normal for a newborn (fortunately or unfortunately.) You're doing great.

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  2. oh yikes. i hope she finally gets in a good routine. and at least she's gaining weight and pooping, so you aren't malnourishing her or anything! keep it up, it has to get better sometime, right?

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  3. Im sorry you not getting much sleep that was the worst part, sometimes I wondered how I could even function. You're a great mom, I think sometimes we are too hard on ourselves I know I am thinking that I need to do things differently or better. But like you said all that matters is she is gaining weight & filling her diapers.

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  4. Ugh, I am so sorry, I was the same way, on the brink of insanity. I never thought I would get so excited about getting 4 hours of sleep in a row.

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  5. yes, definitely let kev soothe her after you feed at night! i found that out the hard way, that wy was much more willing to sleep if caleb did it than i did at first, mostly because they just sort of associate you with feeding. and they're like, hey! you're here! more food please! even if you just did. she'll get it! and oh, if the mutt ever barked while i was sleeping during the day, i was SO mad. hate that.

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