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Friday, February 24, 2012

Que sera, sera


In the midst of a playdate.
Some days I wish I'd gone to college for an education in child-rearing. Is there a university that offers such a degree? BYU, perhaps?

I wonder what good my Bachelor's of Art is doing me when I'm trying to rationalize with a toddler that eating applesauce is much better than wearing it. That wasn't on any of my mid-terms!

By the time I re-enter the workforce, what worth will my schooling hold? No one will care that I have an English degree and work experience in property management, or that I spent the last however-many-years as a parent. But in the meantime, I'm still paying back my student loans for that education.

I try to look at my time in college from a different angle, and I tell myself I never would have become the person I am without those years of experience. I may not have met Kev if I had not gone to school and made the friends I did in the dorms. I wouldn't have this Pink House, or this little Penny of mine. I wouldn't have the opportunity to teach Yoga at my alma matter if I hadn't maintained connections with people on campus after I left.

It's weird to be having this crisis right now; I don't know when I'll work more than a few hours a week, so I don't need to worry about it now. It's hard to ignore though. I wonder if I'll just find more places to teach Yoga when Aspen starts pre-school or kindergarten. Or will I finally get over the horrors of having a newborn and *gasp* have another baby? I just don't know. And I don't like uncertainty.

2 comments:

  1. They do offer degrees in mommy hood, they just disguise it with the title "early childhood education." :) I actually think taking a siesta for having kids has been freeing in a way. I think "Sure, I could go back to teaching BUT I've already spent a few years doing that so maybe I'd want to do _______, ________, or _______ instead! I don't know, to everything there is a season- who knows what the future holds for any of us.

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  2. I have the opposite concern. When am I going to go back to college and what am I going to major in? I hope to return once the boys are in school and work part time. I would like to be home for them, but to also have time to feel productive for myself.

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