I've pretty much reached the end of my rope when it comes to sleeping.
Linc is still up all through the night, sometimes FOUR TIMES. For a baby his age, this is completely unnecessary. Which is proven by the fact he sometimes won't even nurse when I respond to his cries. He just wants some company.
The problem with colic (besides going crazy from constant screaming) is that it took away my baby's ability to learn any self-soothing techniques. Because I did whatever I could to stop his screaming all those weeks, Linc never had to develop any way of soothing that didn't involve me. He was constantly held, rocked, nursed and catered to. He stopped using a binky because he knew he could just nurse. He didn't suck on his fingers or thumb because he knew he could just nurse. He didn't need a blankie to cuddle his face because he was held instead. And the number one offender- rocking him to sleep.
I've had a lot of helpful discussions with other moms, but nothing is yet working on my little bambino. I've tried all sorts of combinations of the following:
loose swaddling (I ordered a sleep sack at 3am the other morning, so hopefully that helps)
binky (now rejected)
nursing to sleep
not nursing to sleep
no sound machine
crying it out
sleeping him in his swing
giving him something to cuddle (soft blanket, favorite stuffed rattle etc)
delayed-response to crying
keeping him awake no longer than two hours at a time during the day
keeping him awake slightly longer then two hours at a time during the day
Next up is to work on my diet. I sat down to write out my thoughts on this possibility when a friend called to suggest something I'm eating is bothering Linc so much that he can't sleep well. I literally was contemplating what the culprit may be when my phone rang. So I'm hopeful that's a sign I'm on the right path. I'm going to eliminate my daily dose of yogurt and see how that helps Linc's sleep because I have an inkling he has slept better in the past when I've run out of my beloved greek yogurt. If there's no improvement in the next week, then I'll see what else I'm eating that could potentially be bothering him (like acidic foods).
Honestly, if I don't sleep more soon I'm going to flip out. I'm always irritable, I'm so forgetful, I've lost a lot of weight, and I feel anxious all. the. time about sleep, or lack thereof. It's like I'm a prisoner in my house, with a teeny little warden dictating how my days will go (hint: usually crappy). It's extremely difficult to get Aspen to school and dance with this non-schedule Linc is on. It's positively dreadful to take the kids to work with me. And at night, when I finally lie down and hope for sleep, it's difficult to drift off because I just wonder when he's going to wake up screaming again.
All I want for Christmas is to sleep longer than 4 hours at a time.
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